You've started that "to do" list; it's looking good. Wait a minute, I think I could add more, beef it up, I can do all this, no problem. Sitting down at the table with your coffee or tea, what started as reasonable endeavor of tasks, has now morphed into a scroll of items to tackle. You can't back down now, you'll look foolish, even though no one even saw you make this list, the largest critic is always watching...YOU.
What does it take to be okay with completing only what you can handle in a day, to put the gavel in the drawer and leave it there? Can you rejig your mantra to include a nonjudgmental environment on the inside so that on the surface you don't need to pretend you have it all together? The ramifications of disappointing yourself are the most damaging to the soul, it can leave the worst scars, even though they cannot be seen. But it doesn't have to be this way.
Creating a schedule, or a to do list, that works for a life that makes you happy is doable, however, definitely not easy. Making a routine, one that actually works, may be daunting, but it will change the way you embrace your health, your relationships, and your work. You are not on trial within yourself. Be softer on the inside, and design your time to feel good about who you are and what you are doing. When those vicious curveballs come, maybe your jury will have turned into a support system.
My Digging Deep packages help to recognize the impact of this and start a path to making a change, so check them out and lets chat!